It's three weeks into Culinary School now.. and this week's been the best week so far cause Gross boy's been absent... I've been dreading every meeting cause i just can't stand him. I could quit but then I don't want to be a loser like him. And quitting is for losers and life's full of pathetic losers like him..

It's finally Friday (1:11 am) and the weekends and Mondays are the best days of the week. Sure cooking school's fine other than i have to deal with all sorts of strange people, stand for hours in the heat of the kitchen, wear a silly hat and deal with the fear of making a mistake cause i just am, afraid of failure... But I just enjoy music more than anything else in the whole world.. I sing on Fridays and Saturdays for two different Youth services for two different churches. And even if I'm just singing back up it's just an awesome feeling to be on stage and holding a mic and you can jump around and dance and they can't say you look stupid. And when people come up to you and just say 'Good Job' and just basically being able to bless other people and God by using my talents.. It's all i ever want to do...

Everyone else in the world hates Mondays but i love them, cause I don't have to wake up early and I have Piano Classes. And I've wanted to play the piano for real now.. I can like, memorize and copy how people play but I can never read notes. My piano teacher is so much fun too, she's not strict and old school like those... well, strict and old teachers.. And besides, the new guy i like plays the piano..


Life's been.. well pretty routinary now.. but i have Wednesdays to balance it out.. And for now, i think i need something routine cause for the longest time since graduation, I've just been bumming out and spending money..

As for the migration, wow, i never actually used the term 'migration' for this whole experience.. Well, i really wouldn't call it an experience yet cause i haven't experienced anything but waiting.. but then again that's part of it.. Speaking of waiting... I really want to leave by September cause I want to experience High School in the states and possibly experience prom again... since mine was.. never mind. But then, it seems what I said before, that I have nothing left for me here in the Philippines is changing, or at least I've realized that isn't really true.. Cause I have awesome friends and even if I don't get to see them all the time cause they have school, they're still there.. And I get to sing here and I don't know if i can find anywhere to sing there.. And I think I want to spend my 18th birthday here.. wow, I'm old..

Wow, this is long, no one's going to want to read it.. hahaha..